I have been lifted up by so many around me. They tell me I am strong, that I am doing so well. I have had my moments where I feel like I can't go on, I feel like I am being overwhelmed. I have been so blessed in my life to get a new job and I have school. I try so hard to do things right and to be perfect in all that I do it does not always help me.
I don't know what happened to me, I don't know when I became this perfectionist. When I demanded so much of myself that it all had to be perfect. I have to do my job just right, I have to be the best, to learn faster, to do better than others. The same for school, I have to make good grades, I have to be the best in class. That is not including me as a mother, I have to be the good mom, give my kids what they need, let them have good experiences in life. It's exhausting.
The truth is I don't do this on my own, the only way I find the strength to do what I do is through God. The funny thing is even when I am down he knows how to pick me up. In one day I won two things that I wasn't even expecting. One of them was a book called Cause Within You by Matthew Barnett. God has a plan for me, he has placed a cause in my life and now he is giving me the tools to do it.
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