Solutions for life

I've been guilty of going to those I know and asking their opinion, finding out how things work in their life and trying to fit it into the situation I'm going through. When I say I'm guilty of it, I mean I'm more like an expert at it. Some of my blogs have been first heard by my closest friends through relentless questioning. Because I am naturally curious at everything I will research things to death. I don't always have time to read novels but I do read plenty of articles on the internet in my research. Tip of the day, don't believe everything you read on the internet. You have to weigh the good and the bad, and take the information given with a grain of salt. In this age of access at our fingertips we could take any subject and try to find the answers on the internet. You won't find them there, and the more you look, the more you get confused. 

I would often start a conversation with, "I was on the internet" and a groan would come up from the other side of the phone. "What did you find this time?" The truth is that not all information is bad, not all is good. The problem is when we take everyone else's information and advice and try to make it our own. 

I have felt for some time that I should write this blog, mostly for my own good. I find myself looking up topics online that don't lead me to the right places. I'm not saying I go around looking for things that are bad, but the views that they bring out, don't always reflect what I should be thinking. I have a book that has more useful information in it then any of these articles. The problem is there is no direct solution for exactly what I am going through. I've checked. The difference is, this book has guidance and solutions that will stay with me for my entire life and if I follow it, all these things I have questions about will fall into place. 

This book, (the Bible) if you weren't aware by now has been very helpful. It doesn't give me the exact situation, but it's got the best information. I have so many times prayed for what God wants me to do in my life and where my life is headed. The most important thing is what I felt lead to do when I started praying about it a year and a half ago. I was called to be a light in the darkness, see John 1:5. I was called to share my story and tell others about what I've been through and what God did for me, see Acts  1:8. I was called to be a mother to my children and woman of God, see Proverbs 31:10-31. I am called to show grace and forgiveness because I have been forgiven, see Romans 3:23-24. 

I try to seek God's will and what he wants me to do in my life. I keep praying and seeking, there is no exact word on what I am supposed to be doing. If life were that easy then everyone would be doing the right thing. I can't tell you what my future is going to look like in 3 days, 3 months, or 3 years. I hope for what it could be, but I keep moving forward, pressing on to the final goal. Hebrews 12:1-3.

The rest of my life

Today is the first day of the rest of your life, it wasn't really a phrase I understood until now. The future before is a blank slate, an opportunity for us to start all over again. Whatever we did before was in the past and it cannot be changed. We can only do so much about what is before us. I have spent many years of my life thinking about my past and the things I did wrong and how I would right the wrongs. The problem is there is no fixing it. I can't change my future by changing my past. I can only work to live my life differently.

Living life differently is not easy, it goes against everything that we are ingrained to do. We want to live a certain way, enjoy the finer things of life and high points that living for God does not always allow for.  I'm not saying that living for God requires you to live in a box or that you can't have a good life or nice things. What it comes down to is what you are called too. We are each called to our own path, each one different in its own way. You have your own path to walk and I have mine. No two people can or ever will have the exact same path.

I got into a conversation that made me realize that we all have our own things we are dealing with. We can't wish someone else's life onto our own or say that we can understand it.  I wish that life was that easy, that I had someone who could tell me how to deal with everything I'm going through, but no one can. The only option is to turn to the Bible and pray that God will guide us.  Last night in a search for some answers I came across a simple verse. It wasn't much and it was not even anything that on a given day would be spectacular. Psalm 143:10 Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God; Your Spirit is good. Lead me in the land of uprightness.

My life's calling is my own, I work full time, live with my parents, have great friends, homeschool, attend church, homeschool, and write. I have enough on my plate to make a normal person crazy is what I've been told and my job doesn't help much. It's a full time job, plus. I live with the choices that I make every day. They are my own and no one else's. I have always chosen to be different, to go against the grain. That has not always worked out for me. I can't guarantee that the choices I make are going to work out for the best. I can only make choices that are lined up with the word of God and go from there. Live uprighteously. What does that really mean? Taking each day a moment at a time and when we are wrong promptly admitting it. I know that I will never be perfect. I can never live my life in a way that will be 100% of exactly what God has called us to. We are all human and will make mistakes.

Thank God for grace, for forgiveness, for peace. It's not easy being a Christian in this crazy world. I thank God for the support, the people he has placed in my life and the joy that they bring me. I wouldn't be where I am without my family and friends. Thank God for all he has done in my life and that each  day I can keep moving forward.